Saving my baby girl from greater suffering, my gold-medal best

From TODAY Mom Marisa Langford

My story starts five years ago when my son Jake was diagnosed with a rare condition known as congenital adrenal hyperplasia. It is a lifelong condition that requires daily medicine. He is super healthy and an amazing child. (Thankfully this condition is not neurological or mental. We are blessed he is so healthy.)

After learning that our future children would have a 25 percent chance to have this same condition, we were not sure if we would venture into having more children after Jake. Our beautiful daughter Mia was born 14 months after Jake and thankfully did not have the condition. Here's where my Olympic parenting moment comes in...

So in January of 2009, we found out we were pregnant with our third child. After many heart-wrenching discussions about what we were were going to do if our third child were to have CAH, we decided to have prenatal testing done to see if our baby would have the condition. She was diagnosed with this condition on March 18, 2009 -- a day I will never forget.

With Jake, we never knew because he was our first and we didn't find out until two days after he was born. Because of baby No. 3's diagnosis, we were told of our options going forward, and being that it was a "she," CAH has many more consequences in utero. The only true option that I would have to "save" my daughter from many surgeries would be to take this medicine -- Dexamethasone (a steroid) -- for the duration of my pregnancy, to hopefully lessen the effects of CAH on her before she was born.

The side effects of the drug were terrible, and I knew this going into our decision. Insomnia (I only slept four hours a day for five months), weight gain (I gained 60 pounds on my small, 5-foot, 2-inch frame), mood swings (thankfully I have an amazing husband), of course the dreaded stretch marks (they are sooo deep and sooo big, I was devastated when I started to get them during month seven and there was no cream or ANYTHING I could use to prevent them) and also the "cushnoid" face. Many people who are on steroids for a long duration of time will get a puffy, swollen-looking face. I compare this experience to an out-of-body experience. I would look in the mirror and cry because I wasn't looking at me. By the eighth month I swore I couldn't last another day and just couldn't do it anymore. I was completely miserable.

On August 24, 2009, Shelby Grace was born. Only by the grace of God did I make it through this life-changing experience. She is now six months old, my body and face are back to normal, and I have this amazingly beautiful and healthy baby girl. She does have CAH, just like her brother, but the nine months I endured for her were like no other challenge I have ever faced. It was truly like the Olympics of pregnancy. I have trained for sprint triathlons before, and crossing the finish line and reaching that milestone is an amazing accomplishment. Seeing Shelby's beautiful face and seeing her smile make me feel like I have accomplished something greater than I ever will in my life. My family is my prize -- and seeing them every day is an amazing feeling, knowing I played a huge part in their being here.

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How is this being a good mom. If my son was diagnosed with this rare disorder, I would not have more children. The 25 percent chance is not worth it. I am a mother and would never put my child through such an ordeal. CHA is not like a cold that will eventually go away. This to me is not a good parenting decisoin. My only hope that this is the last child.

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Reply#1 - Thu Feb 25, 2010 3:14 PM EST

Hey, Sherry! Ever heard the saying ....If you don't have nothing nice to say,say nothing at all!

    #1.1 - Thu Feb 25, 2010 5:08 PM EST

    Seriously, Sherry? If you don't have nothing nice to say....keep your trap shut!

      #1.2 - Thu Feb 25, 2010 5:16 PM EST

      Wow! This is a mean comment. Being anonymous doesn't mean you have to be a "mean girl".

      Being so judgmental (and mean) will keep you from being the best mother you can be. Try a little kindness!

        #1.3 - Thu Feb 25, 2010 6:20 PM EST

        Sherry,

        This is a mean and hurtful comment not meant to do anything but call out a very loving, warm, compassionate mother who would sacrifice anything for her children. Maybe you should count yourself fortunate to never have had to experience what Marisa has gone through and say a prayer for those who do.

        Dr Amy McKenna

          #1.4 - Thu Feb 25, 2010 8:02 PM EST

          I'll bet you'd vote to 'pull the plug' rather than give life-long care if your own child suffered a catastrophic injury. I'd say YOUR parents didn't stop soon enough - you got the 'mean-gene'.

          "It's better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool, than to open it and remove all doubt". Mark Twain

            #1.5 - Fri Feb 26, 2010 1:42 PM EST

            Imagine if YOU were child #3. Honestly Sherry, what happened to make you so mean and bitter?

              #1.6 - Fri Feb 26, 2010 2:25 PM EST

              I'm sorry i get what people are saying but i can't disagree with sherry. Knowing the life of having a disabled child and knowing that if i get pregnant again there is a chance i could pass a horrible disease to another child i would never take that chance. Seeing my son suffer the way he has why on earth would i bring another child into this world to possibly suffer the same pain. Its a judgement call but it was a selfish decision to have another child. sometimes you have to put there innocent lives before your own and if you want another child adopt. There are many children in this world that need loving parents. Truthfully there are way to many children suffering with diseases and if it could be prevented by all means PREVENT IT! you may not agree with what im saying but chances are you do not have a disabled child. You do not feel or see the pain that comes with it. My prayers are with u although i do NOT agree that you should be honored for bringing another disabled or sick child into this world!

                #1.7 - Sun Feb 28, 2010 6:52 PM EST

                I agree too with Sherry. It does seem cold, even when I say it. However I would never ever bring a child into the world if I knew they would probably have a lifelong illness. The quality of life is so important. A child sick, in pain, constantly, is not a life worth living.

                  #1.8 - Sun Feb 28, 2010 9:13 PM EST
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                  I had to take high doses of prednisone when I was pregnant with my boys because I had already had four miscarriages.  It turned out the miscarriages were caused by an autoimmune problem and the prednisone was to suppress the dangerous antibodies.  Reading your article brought back memories of all the side effects--the 60 lbs of water weight, the chin hairs, the bad skin, the mood swings, the big prednisone face, and yes the horrendous stretch marks (oh wait, no need to bring back memories of those, they're still here ;D)--but it also reminded me how very worth it going through that was to make sure they would be ok, and how I would do it again for them in a heartbeat.  Congratulations on being able to have your family too, Marisa. 

                    Reply#2 - Thu Feb 25, 2010 6:44 PM EST

                    Hooray for you, Marisa! You never gave up hope, you did what you had to do, and you and your family can be proud of that. There are others out there that have done similar things, for whatever reason - you are their spokesperson. Sherry is a bitter woman, and could never be as courageous as you (and others) have been. I feel sorry for her and her family: what a selfish person. I applaud you! Enjoy your beautiful family!

                      Reply#3 - Thu Feb 25, 2010 7:53 PM EST

                      My name is Amanda and I'm 25 yrs old. My mom married my dad knowing he had been born with Muscular Dystrophy that when they had a baby it was more likely then unlikely that I would be born with the family disability. Though my dad does walk I cannot and have been in a wheelchair my whole life. Even though other problems have popped up along the years I have a very happy, never ever boring, life. And I know without one bit of doubt that my parents would go through every single tear, birthdays, doctor visits, Barbie dolls, hospital overnighters, hospital food, high school parties, surgeries, family trips, etc over again for me or if God had bless them with another child with Muscular Dystrophy (or anything else) all over again.

                      While I can understand and appreciate "Sherry's" comment as a mother who would never ever want her children in any sort of pain I'm disappointed at the tone she seems to "voice." This mother went though things we will never understand mentally and physically. And, yes, CHA isn't as little as a cold and this family does and will have mountains to climb and conquer in the many years to come. Some mountains higher and steeper then others even. I can guarantee that from personal experience. What made me cringe and frown the most though were the last couple lines of her comment. Clearly that is her opinion but she seems to come from the “comfort camp”. Life is not easy.

                      To the "Olympic Mom" I'm happy you, in my heart and mind, did the right thing buy taking the meds even though you were obviously very uncomfortable. Your children are your 3 bright and shiny gold medals. Congratulations and I'll be keeping you and your family in my prayers. God Bless you and your family.

                      Amanda H. (ChickonWheels) ;-D

                        Reply#4 - Thu Feb 25, 2010 9:18 PM EST

                        Amen, sister!

                          #4.1 - Fri Feb 26, 2010 2:22 PM EST
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                          Sherry,

                          I appear to be the only one, but I do agree with your comments. I have two children that I love dearly, and would do anything for them. And, I myself actually made the decision not to have a 3rd child based on health complications my second child suffered from. As a mother, I do not understand Marisa's & her husband's decision to bring a child in to the world, knowing that their decision could mean a lifetime of suffering for that child. What is wrong with adopting a child if they truly wanted a larger family? There are so many unwanted children that are suffering in this world already; why not consider adoption as an alternative?

                            Reply#5 - Fri Feb 26, 2010 4:41 PM EST

                            My father has NF1 (neurofibromatosis). Everytime my mother got pregnant she had a 50/50 chance of the baby having NF1. My older sister was born with NF1 and 22 months later so was I. My parents had my younger sister 14 months later and she does not have NF1. Back in the late 60's and early 70's they did not have the testing they do today. I am happy that my parents had all of us children. I now have 2 children, my oldest does not have NF1, but my youngest does. I cannot imagine life without him. I do not have any regrets. NF1 is not life threating and I may never had had children if it was.

                              Reply#6 - Sun Feb 28, 2010 11:58 PM EST
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